I was often asked these questions – Why people take a long time to make a decision or act on something? Why humans overthink? One of the reasons – Fear of the unknown. Fear is defined as an unpleasant emotion or thought that you have when you are frightened or worried by something dangerous, painful or bad that is happening or might happen.
If you don’t understand fear, the 2019-nCoV actually portray Fear in general very appropriately. Fear is a very scary tool and Fear defeats more people in our daily life than the 2019-nCoV. For example, I’m fearful of lizards, but in actual fact, I was never harmed or killed by lizards.
My panic button was pushed recently because of the 2019-nCoV, not because I haven’t been through one (9-11, SARS, H1N1). During SARS, I was single, no worries. During H1N1, I’m married, I have someone to depend on, but this time, I’m alone and my family depended on me.
The Bad Flu
It all started when I was down with a very bad flu for more than a week during January, my fever and cough refused to go away. Due to the amount of medication I took, I put my responsibilities on hold, I just wanted to sleep.
Even though CNY was near, I did not prepare new notes, ang-baos and etc. Back at work, I only wanted to concentrate on work-related duties and nothing more (my client actually dragged me to buy oranges during our meeting).
When I fully recovered, I realised a lot of necessities at home were out, bills unpaid and almost everything was pending. It wasn’t a sudden realisation that my family depended on me; it was how real it was without me in action.
My Panic Button
It was the 3rd Day of CNY and I saw a temperature-taking station at a mall during lunch. Vivid memories of SARS and H1N1 floated back and my panic button was pushed. I have to be prepared!
Using my past experiences in the Business Continuity and Disaster Recovery Team, I put together a simple checklist with the aim my family must still be able to function at 80% during my absence and quickly act on it. I begin filing up giro forms, passing contact numbers and cash to my helper, buying masks, household goods, replenishing my fridge and other nitty-gritty. In just a few days, I’m more or less prepared.
Questioning my logic and panic
A dear friend visited me at home on 1st February and I shared with her how I went about the past few days, she laughed and asked me: “What’s your fear? You are covered with the blood of Jesus.”
“It’s not fear, I know the fatality rate is low, maybe it’s the inconvenience that I will cause or the responsibilities I have now, by doing these I feel secured and prepared. Aiya, I’m old already.” I said after a long pause and broke into laughter. I’m so ashamed that I have forgotten my fundamentals.
“If you are worried that you have nothing to prove your case, engaged a private investigator or do your own findings. If you are worried, your “soon to be ex” may harm you after moving out, please write your will. You cannot control his action but you can do things to prepare for the worst-case scenario.” This is what I normally share when my clients confided their fears and worries.
It’s ironic that I have fallen into this “Fear Pit-hole”, well … I’m human too. It was timely that my friend raised the question, at times, we just need someone to process our thoughts. For now, I’ve prepared what I can prepare and if I’m the chosen “TESTED POSITIVE”, trust that it’s God’s will to test me but never to harm me.
As I am typing this, my Facebook feed shows empty shelves, long queues, and PANIC BUYING in the supermarkets.
<Panic> D@#n, I have no Beer in my fridge! LOL! <Panic>
# Opinions expressed are solely my own and do not express the views or opinions of my employer – Ranger Investigation.
Photo from https://www.who.int/health-topics/coronavirus